Thinking back to before middle school, I was actually an exceptionally sunny kid who smiled and laughed every day. But ever since I began to suspect that I had cancer (although I wasn't sure), and I never dared to tell my parents about it, over the past few years, I felt myself becoming more and more negative and having low self-esteem. On the surface, I am always smiling when I am with others, but when I am alone, I can't help but cry. What's wrong with me? I read depression-related information all day long, was afraid of being alone, and my friends around me gradually distanced themselves. When I walk alone, I feel fearful of society and people, and I'm even more afraid of interacting with others for fear of upsetting them or bothering them. I really want to cry, I've been carrying this pressure alone for so long that I've even thought of dying, but I don't dare to say it when I think of my parents. The tears just won't stop sometimes.
I'm really tired of forcing a smile in front of people while I'm in tears behind my back.
Hey, if you think you might have cancer but aren't quite sure, this kind of worry is actually quite normal and doesn't mean there's something wrong with you mentally. But carrying this kind of stress alone for a long time will definitely have a big impact on your mental health. Therefore, the first step is to go to the hospital for a comprehensive physical examination to see if you really have a serious disease. If you find that there is no cancer or other serious illnesses after the examination, then you should seek the help of a professional counselor to deal with the negative emotions brought about by these worries. In case you do find out something is wrong, be brave enough to talk to your parents about it, and we can face and solve the problem together. Remember, you are not alone, and asking for help is a sign of bravery.