I am 16 years old, recently found that I have a tendency of self-mutilation and self-harm, and relationships are not handled well, I always have insomnia or nightmares at night, and my suicidal thoughts are getting stronger and stronger, and I even think of some bloody ways of death.
Hello building owner:
I wonder if your relationship problems come from family conflicts or friction with friends and teachers?
If the problem lies with your family, it may be because you are in your adolescence and your sense of independence has increased, so it is inevitable that you will have some conflicts with your parents.
Become more opinionated, slowly reduce the dependence on parents, have their own ideas, occasionally contradict parents is normal. Don't blame yourself too much. If you do something wrong, take the initiative to talk to your parents and apologize.
Self-mutilation and self-harm can temporarily relieve pain though, replacing the pain in your heart with physical pain and alleviating feelings of self-denial.
However, this is not a healthy and effective method, nor does it really solve the problem.
Sometimes we are so attached to our feelings that what we feel is important may not be so important in the eyes of others. For friends, just do it with a clear conscience, you don't owe anyone, there's no need to over-sacrifice.
Think about the people around you who are good to you and are willing to take care of and be there for you, they certainly don't want to see you give up on yourself.
The best thing to do is to improve your competitiveness and learn more because when you have the ability and a stable job, you will not suffer from vulnerability. On the contrary, those who once despised you will come closer of their own accord because of your growth.