I find myself especially narcissistic, I can't help but look in the mirror when there is a reflection, and repeatedly survey myself ...... In order to maintain my figure, I insist on working out and dieting like self-mutilation, and if I eat a little bit more, I have to starve myself to the point of stomach ache at night before I feel relieved ...... But on the other hand I have a super low self-esteem ...... When others talk about areas I'm not familiar with but think are important, I'll be ashamed and annoyed, and even want to use a knife to hurt myself, and then frantically make up for it, but I always feel like I'm a big difference ...... This kind of discrepancy is really desperate! ...... When I socialize, I often feel superfluous, except for the occasional gag, do not dare to participate in the depth of the discussion ......
Hello! Let me start by giving you a warm hug through the space. It's really amazing that you are so clearly aware of your emotions, because awareness is the first step to change. In fact, your narcissism often stems from an inner inferiority complex. It is due to a lack of acceptance and confidence in yourself and a lack of awareness that you escape from the reality of your shortcomings by pursuing perfection, don't you think? So, the key to change is to learn self-acceptance, develop self-confidence, and improve your sense of self-worth. Accept the parts you can't change and work on the ones you can. You can try to make a list of your self-advantages to see both the shortcomings and the highlights; stick to a gratitude journal to boost your self-confidence; and cultivate more hobbies to make your life more fulfilling and controllable. Keeping an emotional diary can help you record your feelings in a timely manner, improve your self-awareness and caring, and evaluate yourself more objectively and rationally when you know yourself better. I'm Lily Little Ears from the Q&A Center, and the world and I love you.