I'm eighteen years old and haven't made any friends in years and have always had a social phobia. Even when I talk to my dad, I can't help but interrupt him when he's talking. I've read some psychology books myself and tried to self-adjust.
Now in life, I still don't have any friends and I get bullied a lot.
This is manifested in the form of people spitting betel nut juice on the newspaper I use, or pretending that they can't hear me and asking me the same questions over and over again, pretending not to hear me when they have clearly said it once.
They also insinuated that they were bullying me, even to my face, and some of them I had just met, and the men started scaring me with their eyes.
At work, they sometimes purposely ask me to go here and there, take me around and play tricks on me, and I don't even know how to react, my emotions seem to be blocked out.
There's really a lot of bullying going on and I don't know why. I've had a few outbursts on occasions where I've screamed (it's a stress reaction), and I've cried a number of times when I've screamed when I've had a particularly sad heart. Once a girl gloated and laughed when I screamed, and later someone else made snide remarks and clapped when I couldn't control myself.
And now they continue to bully me every day.
I haven't had any friends in a long time, I feel like no one accepts me, and I've actually been reading psychology books myself.
What do I do.
You need to be strong and learn to observe yourself and your surroundings to find out the answers to your questions before they bully you. Some people gloat because your behavior seems strange or even ridiculous to them. The weaker you act, the more they will bully you.
So you have to be brave and just tell them that this kind of prank is a trick only kids play and they are too childish.
You need to do what you need to do and not leave weaknesses (like the chance of being yelled at for doing something wrong).
Establish the label "I don't mess with people, so please don't mess with me."
Tell them that this bothers you. Complaining alone won't solve the problem, do the right thing, look at the problem from a developmental perspective, and don't get yourself stuck.
They do cause you a lot of trouble since they do these things. You don't need to cry or scream.
Please work on being confident, thoughtful, and happy.
Cheer up!