A year ago, I suffered from depression because of campus violence and the pressure of the college entrance exam. I didn't go to college, and later dropped out of junior college because my condition worsened. I often wish I could be like a stone, without emotions or heart, so I wouldn't feel so tired. Sometimes I really don't want to live anymore, but I don't have the courage to end my life. Now I feel like a drag instead of a source of pride for anyone. The expenses for medication and treatment also add to the burden of my family, and I always feel that I am too useless.
Hi! I read your share carefully and I really appreciate your willingness to talk about it.
I have read your words over and over again, and each sentence is written with clarity and without unnecessary words. From your words, I can feel your hurt, sadness, and the love hidden in your heart. You are a sincere and understanding girl. 22 years old, just the beginning of life, there are so many beautiful things waiting for you to experience in the future. If I can help you erase those painful memories that should not belong to you, I will not hesitate to do it. The road of life is still long, if you stop at the beginning, how to realize those beautiful things you once dreamed of?
Behind every wounded heart is a kind heart. It may have been weak, afraid, or even wanted to run away, but it never stopped beating. Life is given by your parents, how can you say give up so easily? For their sake, and for your own, please stop thinking about that dark corner.
Growing Up Right and Wrong
There is always a period of immaturity in life, which is related to each person's personality, family environment and life experiences. In this process, injuries are hard to avoid, but people will always grow up and learn to be responsible for their own choices.When you mention school violence and college entrance exam pressure, I wonder what you were thinking at the time? Sometimes, as important as it is to solve problems, the key may not be in the thing itself.
Think back to when we were little babies, we were already mimicking our mom and dad's speech, facial expressions and actions and interacting with them. This shows that a sense of autonomy takes root in us from a young age. It allows us to learn, think, analyze and finally find answers.So when you were injured in the first place, did you try to use this sense to think about the reasons behind these things?If not, we can try it together and use self-awareness to find the answers.
In the school days, it is really easy to get stressed out with lots of school work and a stressful environment. At a young age, we may not be very good at dealing with these negative emotions.But at that time, can we rely on our self-awareness to notice psychological changes and adjust them? Of course we can.Look at those students who have a good mindset. They don't necessarily know how to release stress, but they do it without realizing it through small things, such as guidance from teachers, support from family members, and cheering up among friends.Therefore, using self-awareness to feel pressure and dissolve it is a good way to balance the mind.
In school, students still mainly focus on their studies, and other things are at best considered minor incidents. If you are fully committed to your studies, these small things do not really affect you much. It's like watching a movie, no matter how fascinating the plot is, there will always be an end, and when you go back to real life, everything will still be calm.
What do you think?
Back to the point, those who are violent are actually among those who are trapped by negative emotions, but of course there may be other reasons such as personality, family problems or psychological distress. Their behavior is not excusable, but it is quite pitiful. The old saying that the pitiful must be hated is true.So, what are they like in your eyes and memories? Were they hateful, horrible, or pitiful? You're a kind and intelligent girl, you should be able to understand what I mean. Try to forgive them, and forgive yourself too!
The Warmth of Home
Yesterday I stumbled across an article that talked about family. One line stuck with me:"The best legacy of a family is not knowledge, but love."A simple sentence speaks volumes about the most important bond between family members.
In a family, as long as there's love, there's no obstacle that can't be overcome.There is always a way to solve the difficulties in front of you. There will always be a way to solve the difficulties in front of you, but you need to be quiet, write down the current difficulties one by one, communicate well with your family, and overcome and improve step by step. Until the day you recover, face your family and life with the sunniest look, and return the love they gave you!
I hope this exchange has helped you a little.
Have fun getting up!